#332

Going to fucking break. Assignments piling up, emotions unstable, quizzes &what not.

Too much on my plate, I can't even think straight. I just need a break. I can't afford to fuck up this semester, again.

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#331

Thinking back, just a month and a half, I almost had it all. 

All, came crashing down on me b'cause of the mistake I made. I will never be able to forgive myself for that.

I will find my happy ending, right? I don't know anymore. It seemed like the best has come and gone.

But, till then, I will have to keep my head held high, and believe in good things. Good things will come when one is not looking for happiness or love.

Happy V-day all!

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#330

Now and then I think of when we were together, like when you said you felt so happy you could die.

; told myself that you were right for me.

But you didn't have to cut me off,
make out like it never happened and that we were nothing,
&I don't even need your love

But you treat me like a stranger and that feels so rough,
now you're just somebody that I used to know

#329

Where did I go wrong? Why do I always have people who use me? &the worst part is feeling like that from your very own best friend. I don't know if its unintentional, but it hurts. I don't wanna believe it, but things got worse when A &I "ended" &even if you don't admit it, things are changing. &its not because X is in town, or whatever else. Its, ever since that, things started changing. Yes, I may be too sensitive about all this, but put yourself in my shoes and you will see it. You only call when you need a ride when you're sneaking out if there is no one else available, or you need to talk to somebody about something, something that you can't tell anyone else, cause it involves them. The last straw was yesterday. You just take people for granted, take me for granted. I can actually understand why your bf gets angry at you for making people wait, cause I finally understood what he was so angry about. Frankly speaking, I'm tired. I'm tired of always being there for you, whenever you need me. The fact that you try not bring up him says a lot. All you do is just try to not "hurt" my feelings. So really, i don't tell you much. I just pretend I'm alright w everything. I don't know who you are anymore. But recently, I feel, you've been just one heck of a selfish friend. You only call when you need something, if not, other than that, you rarely call.

What hurts also is that you, you can even take me for granted. You, ignore me for the most part after what I said to you while I was in Vietnam &when something happened to you, &you couldn't get any answers from anyone else, you come to me &talk. You had a motive. I didn't see it then. But its all clear now. You had a motive that night when you sparked up a conversation, after one whole month of silence. All I asked was just if I called you yesterday night, &that you couldn't even reply. Says a lot about you.

Sigh.

#328

Decided to remove everything. 

I can't be any happier than I am right now. Although it's still in the early stages, very early, but I feel like, this is something good. I don't know how it is going to play out, but I'm just gonna wait, and stay and see what God has planned for me. 

It's true, when they say, good things take time.You don't go searching for love, it comes to you.

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#327

Lack of sleep, sick to the core.

I can't eat properly, can't speak properly without having sore throat pain and wanting to cough till I die. Fml. How to go for Accounts Mid Sem Paper? I really want this to be over. Cannot concentrate properly. &the weather is not doing any good.

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#326

"In another life, I would be your girl
We'd keep all our promises,
I'd make you stay,
so I don't have to say you were the one that got away.

I should have told you what you meant to me.
Cause now I pay the price"

Every word.

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